Why?!?

Just when Ben and I finally feel like we are geiing our break, We have yet another downturn that may be sending us right back where we started.

Today we found out that Ben’s employer, Unisys (Yes, you HORRIBLE company I am rating on you!) is changing his pay from hourly to a set rate 15% lower than he is making now with a “chance” to make up the difference in performance reviews. We know that isn’t going to happen. Ben didn’t get his last raise until a year after he was supposed to get it. We are losing our good health insurance for a crappy plan and we can’t afford to buy our own. Ben’s life insurance has been cut from $50,000 to $10,000.  There’s more but I’m too upset to even remember what they are.

I just can’t believe that we can never get our break. We always get to a point where we think we can move up, move on and go to better places, then our dreams get smashed into millions of pieces every time. I don’t even know if we are going to be able to afford the rental we are going to move into now. I feel like I may have to quit MOPS because we may not be able to afford it anymore.

I think I know how Job felt. Having everything ripped out from under you and not knowing why. I feel like I’m being punished for no reason.

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3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Mom
    Sep 15, 2009 @ 14:23:46

    Oh babe! You guys will get through this. I’m praying.

  2. Kaela
    Sep 16, 2009 @ 15:35:26

    Hey lady, sorry to hear about Ben’s job. MOPS has scholarships available, so don’t worry about that. I’ll get you hooked up with Julie tomorrow and y’all can talk about it! I know how it feels to feel like you’re always just barely above the water, but God provides all-not Ben’s job. I would like to be in a place where we had more disposable income, but that’s not where God wants us right now and it leaves us depending on God for every penny. I know it can be frustrating, but it’s not a bad place to be, waiting and watching for God to do amazing things- I’ll be watching, will you join me? 🙂 Love you!

  3. J
    Sep 21, 2009 @ 20:15:08

    Ditto to your mom and to Kaela, wise women!

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